Mark.
To love is not an easy thing to fully throw yourself into. Because to love another you must first acknowledge the exsistance of that beating breathing living heart inside your own chest. Because to love you must be able to look at another and say “i don’t care if you disagree with me on this subject, we both have our seperate opinions because we are not in fact one person, we are two making it work.” You must be able to ground while the other flies if that is the case. You must be able to fly while the other grounds if that is also the case. You must be able to set free and captivate at the same time. You must be able to completely abandom yourself into anothers arms. You must be able to recognize that smell as soon as it walks into a room. To feel those eyes on you even though your back is turned. Are you willing?
to love…
Because Love can’t look you in the eyes when the eyes are shut.
Because Love can’t talk to you and whisper sweet nothings in your ear all night long if the mouth is closed tight.
Because Love can’t laugh with you if it cant laugh at itself.
Because Love cant admire you from a distance if it never lets you wander more than an arms length away.
Because Love isnt Love if it hasnt Loved itself.
Because Love IS love. And Love IS hate. But love knows when it needs to tell a difference between the two.
Finding love is a lot like finding a $10 on the ground after not eating for the past 2 days.
Take a look at this life and what you have made of it. Take a look in the garbage can and see what food is in it. Why not? Is it dirty? Unnacceptable? Humiliating? Who says? There is treasure for you, waiting long hoping to be found by you around every corner in every bin in every purse…. oh wait is that still illegal? Take a walk, Take a risk. Take some time to see what you’ve missed. Cause if you dont do it and make an example of yourself, how are people going to be able to follow in your footsteps? Who is going to take that first shakey humiliating breath of fresh air and do what they want for a change instead of what they always knew they should so that another may learn from their portrayal of “human exsitance” these days…. not you. I see.
Take a break for a change, drink a 40 with some kids you just met, spin a sidewalk slam with that dirty street band with the washboard, climb to the top of that water tower and see who can flick their cigarette the farthest. climb into different elevators and choose random floors and see if your friends chose the same floor you did… and every time you choose the same floor? take a shot! why the hell not? Drop some beans and roll on the beach and get tackled by some random navy guy into the surf, then laugh at yourself for the next 15 mins. Talk to your dog, or rat, or cat, or snake, or penguin, or goddamned parrot if you must. TRY SOMETHING FUCKING NEW FOR A CHANGE AY?
How about you just open your eyes…. could you do that for me? appreciate who you are, who you were, who you have become, and who you will be. Look at your friends and do the same for them. Love them, and hate them all at once. “let your light shine brother!” and all that bullshit.
How about, just be?
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How about closing out my web page and thinking of your own ideas? How about turning off the TV and watching the clouds go by instead? Cause there are no individual clouds? Just a solid mass of gray? Understandable…. go turn your TV back on then. And re-open my web page. Mark it.
